Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Today

Today is my birthday. I am 36 years old, and that's fine with me. Most everyone I know has a little breakdown each year when their birthdays arrive. Oh, I'm so ooooold, they whine. It's so terrible, not being 22 anymore....etc., etc. Bloody hell. Are you kidding me? I am smarter and stronger and healthier and wiser and better every year that passes. I'd rather age than die, which seems to be the only alternative I can think of. These same people loudly proclaim their intent to Not Celebrate said birthday. Okay, so nobody acknowledges it, and they complain about being forgotten. The next year everyone gets them a gift, and they complain about THAT. Sigh. It makes me tired.

Celebrate your birthday. it's important. Once you lose someone you love, the birthdays you celebrated with him rise up vividly in your mind, and you see how truly you aren't celebrating just a day of birth, but another year of life. Let people appreciate you on your birthday. Shut the fuck up about how old you like to think you are. Enjoy it, and allow your loved ones to enjoy it as well. It could be the last one for you, or someone with you. How sad and selfish it would be if you died and all they had to remember from this year's birthday was you bitching and complaining about aging.

So, what am I doing to enjoy today? I took my dog, whom I love most of all, for an hour-long walk in the rain this morning. We went a different route than usual, sniffed new stuff, peed on new trees (well, he did; I had already peed at home), enjoyed the cool, wet morning, and talked about stuff we like to do. We went to the beach and watched the water and poked around in the seaweed and beach detritus. It was nice. Now I am having coffee and reading my email and in a few minutes I will find a book or some knitting, and sit on the couch with my coffee and bask in the quietness of my house. This evening my husband and I will have sushi with another couple who are our good friends and neighbors. There are some gifts on the table in the dining room to unwrap. And after all that, another walk with my dog.

It may not sound like much to you, but it is precisely what I want to do with my birthday this year.

2 comments:

Redheadedone said...

Oh how I wish I were there to have sushi with you tonight. Not because the sushi is anything spectacular, but the company sure is.

Happy Birthday! :)

Bad, bad Hatty said...

Sorry I missed this at the time, (happy birthday from the future) I love b'days and while I do have the odd 'I'll never be 22...' moment they are few and far between. I am 36 in October and I really like getting older, I am wiser, I have more...authority and you can get away with shit loads more when you are older. Lolly cratfermatron (anticraft)