How Does This Happen?

This makes no sense to me either, but I frequently find myself neck deep in doing things for other people. Obligations, we call them. This is strange, as I (have I mentioned this lately?) hate everybody. I can't explain it. These things just sneak up on me somehow, and suddenly I have no time to do what I want to do. Well, here I am again. I have 4 (yup, 4) part-time jobs. I am on the board of the local arts council. I have an enormous and time-consuming dog. I am married. I live in a house that constantly requires cleaning, and more to the point, I have a level of cleanliness to which I am accustomed, and when it is not near that level, I get cranky. I also have hobbies I need time in which to pursue, and a dance troupe to manage. This incudes choreography and rehearsal.

So.

Here's what will happen. GONE are the Monday job and the Monday night (free) class. I don't feel right quitting the Tuesday job as they are already short-handed, so I'll keep that one. It's only about 2 1/2 hours a week anyhow. I am still considering the other class...money is good, but the prep/instructing time is an issue. I have enough money, but never enough time.

I want to enjoy what time I have left in this place. I want to live my life before it is too late. My father loved his life. He had a wonderful time, almost all the time. He found the greatest joy in simple things. He got huge mileage out of his life, and what a shame not to do the same with mine.

New rule: if I don't love it, it's gone.

I owe that to myself.